It's Everybody Can Bite me Friday!

Thanks to the 8 people who put me over 100. I wish I had door prizes. The first 200 people who follow me, I follow back. So if you've followed me and I haven't done it back due to TOO MANY DOCTOR'S APPOINTMENTS, send me an email (in my profile) and I'll do it. That's all you're allowed to follow, 200. Makes no sense to me. 5000 can follow you and you get to follow 200. Is everyone still awake?

I'm still shocked over the death of Natasha Richardson. 45 years old and from three generations of esteemed British actors. Especially since it was a head trauma and she appeared okay. Almost 2 years ago I was hit by a car while I was walking across the street. The guy who hit me insisted I go to the hospital and I said I was fine, mainly just in shock. I was talking but had a slight headache. I've since fallen twice inside my place and one outside by the pool, where I flashed the gardener. Accidentally.

The man who hit with me with his car said his insurance would pay but from all my experience, hospitals find things that insurance doesn't cover, like toilet paper, and you get billed for an extra $10, 000.

So how come Natasha hit her head and then died? Icy slope? Is that harder than concrete? It's like survivor's syndrome, which I've never believed in. I always just thought, "Their time to go, not mine." According to all my metaphysical books and especially the ones on reincarnation, we choose when we are born and when we die. Which family we choose to be born into, which is for some, the most incomprehensible of all. Would you knowingly pick a drunk, a pedophile or an abuser? But reincarnation is something that we won't understand until it's too late. It's all about the growth of the soul. The body just serves as the way to get you through a particular lifetime.

I 'picked' a father who was distant and not affectionate and I used to pick men like that, until I fucking GOT it and that all ended. Would I have made that choice without picking my Dad? Obviously I needed a few lessons in self worth.

Religious people, as opposed to spiritual people, will tell you there is free will so man has all the control but reincarnation says the exact opposite. Braja had planned a trip to New Zealand from India, with a stop over in Bangkok. Instead she ended up in a hospital in India. Where is the free will? That she made a plan and packed her bags?

Sidebar: If you're currently giving money to a church, STOP. They just use it for themselves and won't get you into what you refer to as 'heaven.' Instead spend it on a neighbor who needs help. Like Bernie Madoff. The Vatican is the richest 'country' in the world followed by the UK's Royal family. Either of them helped you out recently?

Back in 1994, the last major earthquake we had in L.A. there was a picture taken of 7 or 8 houses all on a ridge overlooking the Valley of Los Angeles. They were all built by the same builder in the same year. They all survived the earthquake intact. All but one towards the middle. It slid down the mountain and killed the two occupants inside. Not one other house on that ridge moved.

Most studies say that you know when you're going to die (subconsciously) and you're not afraid and you realize that all you were supposed to learn in this lifetime, you've learned. So you go. Without fear. Gary Zukav once told a couple who had lost a child that birth can't be determined by you, some souls don't even go into bodies until right before the birth, or in some cases, after the birth. So he said to them, "If you can't control birth, why do humans think we can control death? If God sent someone to give birth to you, you have to believe God sent someone to bring you home." So forgiveness for murderers and rapists is essential for your growth because uh, there's no malls or houses or money where we're going. Even Dr. Brian Weiss says all there is in life is love and forgiveness.

My book is all about the paranormal activities (and distant and unaffectionate men) that follow me around. It's been quiet for a while, usually when it starts up it's pretty creepy. I will say that this last 5 years has been a period of patience, something I never had. So as much as I loathe the position I'm in now, maybe I should be grateful instead.

End of chat.